Sleeping With the Enemy

The title of this blog post is a little misleading I must admit because it has nothing to do with Intimacy, It has more to do with our mentality and spirituality. In other words,   what do we have our hearts and minds set on? Does it glorify God?  In my case, the answer was sometimes yes and sometimes no. I recognized what was happening, so I took a break from blogging and writing for a while during a pivotal moment in my life. As I went through the eye of my own storm, I realized how hard this walk really is when things don't go as planned, and how many times  I found myself being distracted from my purpose. I started Questioning every decision I made concerning my relationship with God and everything He has already made clear I need to do. I was getting complacent in my walk and some days when the trials got the best of me, not caring at all. Life dealt me some pretty hard blows that I didn't handle very well.  I didn't feel like praying. I was barely spending any time with God and I felt myself slowly slipping back into that spiritually dry place that I had been delivered from. I was failing my test. In spite of all the distractions going on around me, I still held onto God and passed the most important test, and that is realizing that I cannot do this alone. I need the Holy Spirit in and around me every single hour of every single day. I knew I was beginning to walk in the flesh again and was under heavy spiritual attack.  I know now it's because I was on the cusp of something great. What is flesh anyway? It's not Even physical. It is the part of us that wants absolutely nothing to do with God, and if we don't control it, we give it the power to destroy us. So yes we can destroy ourselves.  That's why In His word God tell us to mortify or kill our flesh. I had to put my pen down to saturate myself in Him. I literally had to hit the reset button on my life...again.  I'm being transparent because I have to. God said the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak then he went off to himself and prayed.  When faced with unexpected tests and trials we must do the Exact same thing. I had to go through that stormy season to see that. Someone is looking for a way out of a situation. I can assure you going backward is not the answer. All the answers are ahead of you so leave what's dead behind you. Stop sleeping with the enemy and tell him you belong to the most High. Your body mind spirit and soul. My pastor gave a sermon that convicted me so bad that I could barely face myself in the mirror. He said, there is no way you can claim to have come into the presence of God if you have heard the word of God and are still doing the same things you've always done. If there is no inward change in you then you have not truly received the word or fully surrendered to  Jesus as He commands us to. You can't be a light to others when one hand is lifted up in church  as you sing I surrender all but you still have one foot in the world. We simply do not have time to be lukewarm.  Instead of surrendering all,  we are creeping behind closed doors in private, sleeping with the enemy in lust, drunkenness, gossiping, partying, cursing, but publicly going to church thinking that makes it right. We can ask for forgiveness but when will we experience that encounter with the divine that gets us to the point that we hate our own sin so much that we turn away from it? That's inward change. It has to come or else we will stay in that same bed of sin with the enemy unable to ever see God.Let this not be our fate at the end of time. Let's us not be the ones who hear the words "get away from me, I never knew you." It's time to pray the words, Change me O God, make me More like you.




put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness” (Ephesians 4:22-24)

Matthew 26:41 Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation.The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.” 42 He went away a second time and prayed, “